When Will That Day Come?

His Divine Grace Om Vishnupad
Srila Bhakti Nirmal Acharya Maharaj
Caracas, Venezuela
25 September 2009

Bhakti Vinod Thakur is asking, "When will that day come in my life when aparadha ghuchi', my offences are removed and I get the taste for the Holy Name?" He is waiting for that day.

You know, sometimes we have a fever and if at that time some good food comes to us, we feel no taste. If somebody has the disease of jaundice, the medicine that is prescribed to them is the sugar cane juice, but when they drink it they do not get any taste. Similarly, we also do not get any taste to chant the Holy Name. Sometimes when somebody is singing, chanting, some people sit silently, arms folded. Have you seen it? They do not get the taste because there are too many offences in them.

Once, a sanodiya brahman asked Mahaprabhu about this. Mahaprabhu went to Kasi, Benares, to rescue all mayavadi sannyasis, and that brahman asked Him, "Prabhu, these sannyasis are experts in all Vedas and Vedanta, but why does the Holy Name not come to their mouths? Why do they not chant?" Mahaprabhu replied, "Because they are Krishna Nama aparadhi—they are offensive to the Holy Name."

So, Bhakti Vinod Thakur is asking, "When will my offences be removed?! When will I get the taste for the pure Holy Name?"

"When?" Bhakti Vinod Thakur sings, "When will I feel that I am less, I am more disqualified than a blade of grass? When will it come to my mind that I am much worse than a blade of grass?" All gopis were asking Lord Krishna, "Please, make it so that next life we are born as a blade of grass in Vrindavan Dham—then we will get the footdust of all the devotees!"

trnadhika hina, kabe nije mani,
sahisnuta-guna hrdayete ani'

"When will I get that kind of tolerance? I cannot tolerate so much, but when will I become tolerant?" Bhakti Vinod Thakur is asking the Lord. He is asking the Lord for that kind of tolerance: "be humble, tolerant, and give honour to others." He is asking, "When! When will I get so much tolerance? When will I get the power of tolerance?"

"Sakale manada, apani amani": "When will I be able to give honour to everybody, all jiva souls? When will I be able to pay dandavat even to the dogs?" "Apani amani" means if somebody is not giving honour to me, I will think, "No problem, I do not care."

In Mahaprabhu's Siksastakam, there is a sloka "Na dhanam, na janam, na sundarim..." Bhakti Vinod Thakur says, "Please remove my asking mood so that I can never ask for this (wealth, followers, beautiful companions, etc.)." Just like Prahlad Maharaj.

When Nrisinghadev asked Prahlad Maharaj, "Prahlad Maharaj, what do you want?" he said, "Prabhu, what do I want? You have already given so much mercy to me. You have appeared for me! I have seen You, and that is sufficient for me. But if You want to give me something... My father has hit Your body, and I am asking You to please rescue him." Nrisighnadev replied, "It is not a boon, it has already happened. When somebody sees Me, somebody chants My Name, somebody hears My Name, they are automatically rescued, but your father has touched My body. Do you think he is still here? He has already been rescued. Ask for another boon." Then Prahlad Maharaj asked for a boon like this, "Prabhu, if You want to give me a boon, then please remove the asking mood, the desire mood from me—make so that for life after life, this asking mood, this desire mood shall be removed from my heart..."

Bhakti Vinod Thakur says, "Ahaituki bhakti janme janme dao: birth after birth, in any birth I want to serve You, I want that kind of causeless devotion to You. Give me that kind of thing, Prabhu!"

Then he says, "When will I, my tongue, always say, 'Sri Krishna!' and tears come? When will that peculiar kind of ecstatic mood come to my mind when I hear, 'Sri Krishna,' when I say, 'Sri Krishna'?"

When?! When will such day come to my life when Nabadwipe suradhuni-tate, in Nabadwip, on the bank of the Ganges, I will run and dance and chant like a crazy person, not thinking about anything, not even thinking that I have no clothes on? When will that kind of mood come? When will it come in my life? When will I chant, 'Gaura Nityananda! Gaura Nityananda!' and dance on the bank of the Ganges in Nabadwip like a crazy person?"

"Kabe Nityananda? When will the day come when Nityananda gives so much mercy to me? When is the day when I will be able to leave my material attachment? When will He give me shelter under His lotus feet? When will He give me shelter to see the market of the Holy Name?"

Kiniba lutiba means, "I am taking a Guru and I am taking the Holy Name—where do I get the Holy Name? From my Guru. I take that Holy Name from my Guru and distribute it all over the world! When will that day come?" Bhakti Vinod Thakur is asking Mahaprabhu, "Please give me some mercy so that such day comes in my life!" How nice it is written...

"When will this day come when I forget my own happiness? When will the day come when I can distribute the Holy Name and give some benefit to others?" Bhakti Vinod Thakur is asking Mahaprabhu humbly, "When will I be able to fulfil Your order (ajna)?" "Order" means Mahaprabhu told, "Prithivite achhe yata nagaradi grama... Preach Krishna consciousness all over the world, in every village!"

This is a very nice song. Always pray to the Lord like this, always pray to the Lord...

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