Spiritual Deposit

His Divine Grace Om Vishnupad
Srila Bhakti Nirmal Acharya Maharaj
Singur (West Bengal), 5 February 2021, part 9
Translated from Bengali

কৃপা কর বৈষ্ণব ঠাকুর ।
সম্বন্ধ জানিয়া ভজিতে ভজিতে
অভিমান হউ দূর ॥

krpa kara vaisnava thakura
sambandha janiya bhajite bhajite
abhimana hau dura

"O Vaishnav Thakur! Please be merciful! Knowing the true relationship I will worship You and my ego will go far away."

'আমি ত বৈষ্ণব' এ বুদ্ধি হইলে
অমানী না হ'ব আমি ।
প্রতিষ্ঠাশা আসি' হৃদয় দূষিবে
হইব নিরয়গামী ॥

'ami ta vaisnava' e buddhi haile
amani na ha'ba ami
pratisthasa asi' hrdaya dusibe
haiba nirayagami

"If I think, 'I am a Vaishnav,' then I will never stop expecting honour from others (I will never become void of the desire for honour)—my heart will become polluted by the desire for fame and I will end up in hell."

If I start thinking that I am a Vaishnav, I will not be able to give honour to others. And when pratistha comes (when I become proud of my wealth, knowledge, beauty, etc.), it will pollute my heart and I will become a resident of hell—it means I will be very soon removed from this line, from the service of the Lord clearing the road to hell for myself. When pratistha comes, we become very heavy. If somebody gives you a garland, you must take shelter of Gurudev, "Gurudev, I am offering this garland at your holy lotus feet." We must always give 'jay' and pay obeisance to our Guru. Even if you do not do anything in particular (a festival, etc.), you must wake up, look into the calendar and give 'jay' to your Guru and Vaishnavs. Always pay obeisance to your Guru and Vaishnavs when you wake up in the morning, always give them 'jay'. Always keep faith and show respect to them. Always see the calendar—whose appearance day it is, whose disappearance day it is. Even if you cannot make a festival, at least you can give them 'jay', it will bring you benefit. When you give 'jay' to your Guru and Vaishnavs, it brings you sukriti. For example, today is the disappearance day of Srila Lochan Das Thakur—give 'jay' to him, remember him. We must always remember the words of Vaishnavs. If I remember the words of Vaishnavs, I get some benefit, some deposit through that. If you have no deposit in the bank, how will you cross the Viraja River? It is a great river—if you want to cross it, you must keep something aside for the fare. That fare is devotion. You must accumulate devotion day by day to cross that river. You cannot get devotion in one day. Like, if you want to make a house, it does not come in one day—you save and put some money aside for some time. Here too, you must accumulate devotion day by day, you must increase your deposit, and Chitragupta [bookkeeper appointed by Yamaraj to keep record of everyone's activities] is there—he writes everything in a diary for you and sees how much you have accumulated. If you have no devotional deposit, you will not be able to cross over the Viraja River and enter the transcendental world—you will be sent back from there.

তোমার কিঙ্কর আপনে জানিব
'গুরু'-অভিমান ত্যজি' ।
তোমার উচ্ছিষ্ট পদজলরেণু
সদা নিষ্কপটে ভজি ॥

tomara kinkara apane janiba
'guru'-abhimana tyaji'
tomara uchchhista pada-jala-renu
sada niskapate bhaji

"I will consider myself Your servant and give up the ego of a guru. I will always earnestly take Your remnants, Your foot dust, the water that has washed Your feet."

"O Vaishnav Thakur! I will always consider myself your servant/maidservant so that I may never become proud and get the ego of a guru. I will always worship your holy remnants and the water that has washed your feet."

নিজে শ্রেষ্ঠ জানি' উচ্ছিষ্টাদি দানে
হবে অভিমান-ভার ।
তাই শিষ্য তব থাকিয়া সর্ব্বদা
না লইব পূজা কা'র ॥

nije srestha jani' uchchhistadi dane
habe abhimana-bhara
tai sisya tava thakiya sarvada
na laiba puja ka'ra

"If I, loving myself more than anyone else, bestow my remnants, etc. on others, then I will become filled with ego. Therefore, I will always remain Your disciple, I will not take worship from anyone."

I have told you about Srila Jagannath Das Babaji Maharaj. When somebody gave him prasadam, he would take everything and not leave anything on the plate and when he was forced to eat more one time, he ate even the plate too. He did not give his prasad (remnants) to anyone. If you give your prasad to others, you will become proud. Sometimes people push, "Take it, eat it"—we should not touch it then (not to leave our prasad for others). It is also said here that I will not take worship from anyone. When we become like this, then Vaishnav Thakur will give us the right to chant kirtan.

অমানী মানদ হইলে কীর্ত্তনে
অধিকার দিবে তুমি ।
তোমার চরণে নিষ্কপটে আমি
কাঁদিয়া লুটিব ভূমি ॥

amani manada haile kirtane
adhikara dibe tumi
tomara charane niskapate ami
kandiya lutiba bhumi

"When I become free from the desire for honour and be able to give honour to others, you will give me the right to chant Your kirtan. I will earnestly roll on the ground and cry at Your holy feet."

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