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SRI GAUDIYA GITANJALI : SARANAGATI GITI
amara jivana, sada pape rata,
nahika punyera lesa
parere udvega, diyachhi ye kata,
diyachhi jivere klesa [1]
My life is always engrossed in sin. There is not a trace of piety in it. And
I have been giving others so much anxiety and pain.
nija sukha lagi’, pape nahi dari’,
daya-hina svartha-para
para sukhe duhkhi, sada mithya-bhasi,
para-duhkha sukha-kara [2]
I am not afraid to commit sins for my own happiness. I am merciless and
selfish. I always lie. I feel unhappy to see others happy, and I feel happy
to see others sad.
asesa kamana, hrdi majhe mora,
krodhi dambha-parayana
mada-matta sada, visaye mohita,
himsa-garba vibhusana [3]
My heart is filled with endless desires. Angry and hypocritical, I am always
intoxicated, mad and engrossed in the material world. Pride and envy are my
ornaments.
nidralasya-hata, sukarye virata,
akarye udyogi ami
pratistha lagiya, sathya-acharana,
lobha-hata sada kami [4]
Ruined by laziness and sleep, I am averse to doing anything good and eager to
do wrong things. I behave crooked desiring prestige. I am ruined by greed and
always want something.
e-hena durjana, sajjana-varjita,
aparadhi nirantara
subha-karya-sunya, sadanartha-mana,
nana duhkhe jara jara [5]
Such a bad person as I is shunned by good souls – I am a constant offender. I
do not do anything good – instead, I am always filled with inauspiciousness.
I am shattered by all kinds of miseries.
varddhakye ekhana, upaya-vihina,
ta’te dina akinchana
bhakativinoda, prabhura charane,
kare duhkha nivedana [6]
Now I am old and helpless. Having thus become poor and materially destitute,
Bhaktivinod humbly submits his sorrow at the holy feet of the Lord.
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