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By Srila Bhakti Vinod Thakur
amara jivana | sada pape rata |
nahika punyera lesa |
parere udvega | diyachhi ye kata |
diyachhi jivere klesa [1] |
My life is always engrossed in sin. There is not a trace of piety within it.
I have caused others so much anxiety and trouble.
nija sukha lagi' | pape nahi dari |
daya-hina svartha-para |
para-sukhe duhkhi | sada mithya-bhasi |
para-duhkha sukha-kara [2] |
I am never afraid to engage in sinful activities for the sake of my own
happiness. I am merciless and selfish. I am a perpetual liar. I am saddened
by the happiness of others and pleased by the sadness of others.
asesa kamana | hrdi majhe mora |
krodhi, dambha-parayana |
mada-matta sada | visaye mohita |
himsa-garva vibhusana [3] |
There are unlimited sinful desires within the core of my heart. I am angry
and arrogant, always maddened with vanity, infatuated with mundanity, and
malice and pride are my ornaments.
nidralasya hata | sukarye virata |
akarye udyogi ami |
pratistha lagiya | sathya-acharana |
lobha-hata sada kami [4] |
I am subdued by laziness and sleep, averse to performing good deeds, and
eager to perform sinful deeds. I engage in deceitful behaviour in pursuit of
prestige. I am ruined by greed and constantly covetous.
e hena durjana | sajjana-varjita |
aparadhi nirantara |
subha-karya-sunya | sadanartha-manah |
nana-duhkhe jara jara [5] |
Such a sinner as I is shunned by devotees, and is a constant offender. I am
devoid of virtuous motives, always intent upon evil, and racked by various
miseries.
vardhakye ekhana | upaya-vihina |
ta'te dina akinchana |
bhakati-vinoda | prabhura charane |
kare duhkha nivedana [6] |
Now aged, I am devoid of any means of deliverance and thus destitute and
distressed. Bhakti Vinod submits this remorseful confession at the Lord's
feet.
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