My life is always engrossed in sin. There is not a trace of piety within it.
I have caused others so much anxiety and trouble.
nija sukha lagi'
pape nahi dari
daya-hina svartha-para
para-sukhe duhkhi
sada mithya-bhasi
para-duhkha sukha-kara [2]
I am never afraid to engage in sinful activities for the sake of my own
happiness. I am merciless and selfish. I am a perpetual liar. I am saddened
by the happiness of others and pleased by the sadness of others.
asesa kamana
hrdi majhe mora
krodhi, dambha-parayana
mada-matta sada
visaye mohita
himsa-garva vibhusana [3]
There are unlimited sinful desires within the core of my heart. I am angry
and arrogant, always maddened with vanity, infatuated with mundanity, and
malice and pride are my ornaments.
nidralasya hata
sukarye virata
akarye udyogi ami
pratistha lagiya
sathya-acharana
lobha-hata sada kami [4]
I am subdued by laziness and sleep, averse to performing good deeds, and
eager to perform sinful deeds. I engage in deceitful behaviour in pursuit of
prestige. I am ruined by greed and constantly covetous.
e hena durjana
sajjana-varjita
aparadhi nirantara
subha-karya-sunya
sadanartha-manah
nana-duhkhe jara jara [5]
Such a sinner as I is shunned by devotees, and is a constant offender. I am
devoid of virtuous motives, always intent upon evil, and racked by various
miseries.
vardhakye ekhana
upaya-vihina
ta'te dina akinchana
bhakati-vinoda
prabhura charane
kare duhkha nivedana [6]
Now aged, I am devoid of any means of deliverance and thus destitute and
distressed. Bhakti Vinod submits this remorseful confession at the Lord's
feet.
'Srila Prabhupad said, 'Do not read so many books, and do not practise so
many things.' Simple books are sufficient. You can recite, sing, and memorise
daily songs, and practise every day.'